Perhaps no other role has affected Nicole Kidman the way her role as Celeste in Big Little Lies have.
In an interview with W Magazine’s August issue, the 50-year-old actress revealed how Celeste’s ordeal and pain had somehow got through to her, often making her feel abused and humiliated.
“I felt very exposed and vulnerable and deeply humiliated at times,” Nicole Kidman said, adding that in a particular scene, she just couldn’t move in between takes due to the overwhelming emotion she felt for her character.
“I remember lying on the floor in the bathroom…and I just wouldn’t get up in-between takes,” she said.
“I was just lying there, sort of broken and crying,” Kidman added. “and I remember at one point [director Jean-Marc Vallée]coming over and just sort of placing a towel over me because I was just lying there in half-torn underwear and just basically on the ground with nothing on and I was just, like [gasps].”
Kidman also said that in terms of getting naked or exposed while cameras rolled was something she had come to terms with for the sake of her craft.
“I’m here to tell the story and to be true to the art, not to bring my own problems in terms of what I feel comfortable with, not comfortable with,” she explained. “I’ve got to go work that stuff out so that I can come as a pure vessel to the work.”
Kidman also said that when they had to film scenes of abuse for Big Little Lies, she would get images of other women who have been victims of domestic abuse.
“I’m like, ‘This is authentic, this is the truth and this is what I have to do,’” she said. “And it would just come through like that.”
“It affected me in a deep way,” Kidman revealed. “When I would go home, I would feel ashamed, and that’s the same emotions and the same feelings that Celeste was having,” Kidman continued. “So we were very much parallel in the feelings.”
Nicole Kidman deserves all the standing ovations and slow claps!